CHAPTER 1
“Goddess of the Night. Hear my plea.”
The sun sat on the edge of the world, its soft light dimly reflected in the rising moon that hung full and low as if it were slow to wake from its long sleep. Their combined light luminesced the grass tips like shining spears to pierce the sky, birthing stars that slowly formed the outline of a God or Goddess, major or minor, with long histories and legends of their own.
Darhna knelt and watched as, one by one, stars combined into the form to whom she pleaded.
“Lady of Love, Queen of Virgins, I beseech thee.”
She bent over an area she had cleared, smoothing the dirt flat and even, then stacked the few pebbles she found nearby into a small pyramid. At the top balanced an incense cone, completing her prairie altar. Surely, the Goddess could not miss her, desperate as a maid in heat, debasing herself with no one near for hundreds of urs.
Darhna held her breath. Just one moment with no movement then she could continue her ritual. She cupped her hand around a lighted stick to block the low breeze that tugged at the tiny flame preventing the cone from catching light. If her will lit fires, this entire prairie would be ablaze.
Patience. She must be patient. The Goddess would hear her prayer. She had to.
“Beautiful of all women. Loved by all men. See my humble soul.” She blew gently to keep the ember alight.
“Goddess of the Night.” Darhna repeated the litany. The ember stick burned low, nipping her fingers. Finally, the cone tip reddened. She remained over it a few dimits more, giving the solid incense a chance to flame before blowing it out.
“Lady of Love. I, Darhna of Faalnara, daughter of Cassell, King of Faalnara, beg thee a favor.” She dropped the stick then quickly covered it with dirt. Burning the prairie would not endure her to the Goddess, much less her father who ruled this prairie and all the land south and west to the ocean, north to the mountains, and east to the River Nara. Thoughts of him destroyed the peace she sought in her heart and the serenity she needed to speak to the Goddess.
“On the morrow comes a man to whom my father has promised me. A man he wishes me to marry.”
She dared not close her eyes to pray. Each night her visions worsened. At first, she only saw a vague form in her dreams. Over the past few months, the image crystallized into a dark-skinned desert barbarian with braided hair and beard. A jagged scar branded his face. The very thought of him sent a shudder through her. She swallowed hard as her stomach lurched bile into her throat. Repulsive.
“As much as I love my father, as much as I love my people, I do not wish to wed.” Darhna withdrew a ruby-handled dagger.
“Dear Goddess, I mean no disrespect. Father only knows what a man knows. I ask thee. I beg thee.” She stared into the sky, at the constellation of Gwendolyn holding the hand of her lover, the Winged Warrior. Her eyes filled with tears.
“Do not allow this treaty to complete. Do not allow the ceremony father says is inevitable. Deep in my heart, I hear a different calling. I cannot name nor describe it, only that it pulls me in another direction.” Something wild and willing possessed her heart, something she had no name for, but she knew with a fierce certainty it didn’t allow for the weight of marriage. The surge of her desire for freedom brought tears to her eyes.
She sliced the palm of her left hand. Blood welled in the crease; dripped onto the cone when she tilted her hand.
“Queen of Virgins. I beseech thee. Let no man touch me. Let no man determine my fate. I beg you, Goddess of the Night, to allow me the freedom to follow my heart, to shun convention, to turn my back on ceremony.”
She squeezed her hand, saturating the cone, letting it drip down the pebbles. Her blood soaked the dirt around the altar.
“Gwendolyn, loved by all, I humbly ask thee to let me follow in your footsteps.”
She inhaled deeply. Musk, the aroma of the Goddess, the aroma of love and lust, devotion and loyalty, mingled with the scent of smoldering blood. She waved the smoke toward her face and repeated her litany, rocking gently with the rhythm.
Lightheaded from inhaling incense, her mind threatening to black out, Darhna waved away the smoke and leaned back on her elbows across a blanket, gazing into the night, taking deep, cleansing breaths.
How long did it take to reach a Goddess?
Like the vast sky above, the dark prairie stretched out around her. She sensed it – heard the breeze rustle in the wild barley, smelled a hint of pre-dawn dew. A hyena howled in the dark. Even at this distance, she caught an occasional faint whiff of smoke and drying excrement from her father’s camp.
Nights on the prairie were not what she expected. What a drastic but pleasant change from the usual dank walls and hustle and bustle of castle life. This flat land seemed so large and surreal, and so different from her home at Castle Faal nestled amidst a lush forest.
Darhna stared at the light-speckled dome above her. Tiny dots of multi-hued light glimmered in patterns of mythical beasts, warriors, and historic adventure. As she had done many nights from her bedroom window, she traced the outline of stars in the constellation of the Winged Warrior and his ladylove, Gwendolyn.
She had prayed every night for weeks. The closer the time for the treaty signing, the more fervent and desperate her prayers. Would the Goddess ever hear her plea? If not, she was prepared to take matters into her own hands. Already, she had packed essentials and ridden out of her father’s camp, wearing men’s clothing, planning to ride hard to a junction of trails in the low mountain base used as a watering stop and trading post, where Nicolas DuBain’s duchy began in the northern province. Nicolas had said she’d be safe and she thought safer there with the court fop, safer there than with her own father bartering away her freedom. Darhna was about to roll up the blanket and ride away when she heard a soft voice.
“Daughter.”
Her head snapped toward the sound. In the smoke rising from the musky incense cone, the outline of a human figure with long flowing hair took form. Darhna’s heart pounded. She whispered, “Gwendolyn.”
“Through pride, we are ever deceiving ourselves.” The apparition’s arms extended.
Remembering her plea, Darhna asked, “Goddess, I beg thee. Not him.”
“If not him, who?” The apparition smiled.
“No one. I am my own woman.” Darhna bristled.
“You may ask for more than you wish.” As fast as the image appeared, the Goddess vanished in a wisp of smoke.